"SYRE"

I can’t seem to breathe

When my mind gets clouded 

I loose focus once my mind is set

And dive deeper into this subconscious of mine 

A state of solid confinement

An annihilating depression

A persona resides there

In that deep dark place

You know

I put up a fight every now and then

It’s never enough

Some evil still seeps out

From time to time 

I try so hard to keep myself

To remain sane while I can

I try to remain calm

But how can I do that if I’m a visitor in my own mind

It’s not easy 

Searching for an entity 

That has no name, no face, no identity

No boundaries or limits

You think it’s that simple huh?

Fighting voices that you can’t see or hear 

Waking up in the middle of the night 

Hopeless, tearful, in pain

It’s not something you control

It’s not something that’ll just blow away

It’s not a bond that can just be broken

It’s not a person that can be led astray

It hurts, it burns, it rips, it shreds

Through my veins, through my mind and my heart

The fiery glaze of thoughts so senile

They’d make your soul quiver

My mind can only take so much 

As can my body

My heart I can’t trust

It’s broken far beyond recognition

I tried, I will try, I’m trying

To fix it

To fix “me”

To fix what broken things I have left

Nothing works

Nothing heals the pain

Nothing heals the cuts, the bruises 

The tears

You can’t fix what’s already broken

Don’t try to

It’ll break you in the process

And you’ll be just like me

This is my burden

My curse

I’m “Atlas”

And this is the world on my shoulders

I don’t think I can come back from this

It’s my breaking point 

I can’t really tell the difference anymore

I’ve lost it all

I can’t keep fighting

So I’ll give in

I’ll give in to those voices

The voices that call my name in the dark

It becomes an enjoyable feeling after a while

Learning to accept your flaws

Your blemishes

Your insecurities

I’m not going to run forever 

My race ends here

My heart can’t take much more

And my mind is fading slowly 

I’ll give in

Give in to the darkness

I’ll turn away the light

And embrace the demons within

Tis all I have left

As I’ve become a slave

Waiting again for that glimmer of hope

Save me; save me “Syre”.

M.G.T

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