My eyes are heavy, So full like the stained Graveyard on my lips Filled with death. It is too much. I do not know how much more I can take, I have been holding on too long. It is 3 am and I am nauseated Not feeling, Still plagued With the madness lingering beneath. What is going on in my mind, Where is the peace, What has happened to my soul, Now lost in anguish? Find me, Please find me. I am sinking lower each day, So someone please help. I am tired Oh so tired. It hurts

Tear it down, and build it anew, With breath of bane, And zeal of dust, Gather! With bow, and flame, Avenge you must, Heap, and Scatter! With thine heart as pure, And hue as one, Aim true Else all is done. Should thy strike Be quick, And fate renewed, Attune, lest the mind plays trick For whence one came In shroud, and might, A holier war Fought far out of sight. In grief, and neglect, A parents failed past Buried in time Traveller, stuck at half mast. Dreaded tears, W

You haunt me With your disdainful presence, Your narcissistic ruse, Your coercive endeavours. From our first encounters I learnt your truths, Lies you hide, The mysterious intent I am brazen yet starstruck, Confused yet alluded You want me to heal But hold the very chains, The very same whips Keeping me on the edge. Time, and time again, You strike subliminally, With your words, Your actions. I fall apart Each time I see these scars, Etched and carved Into my body, my so

In those moments where every other thing seems to fade, you remind me of the things I want to forget. Yet, I embrace the poise of my indignant duality, succumbing to the numbness, and paranoia that casts a shadow on my weary existence. I find no solace in the midst of this madness, the same furnace that once consumed me I have now made my dwelling. Your conceited ego harbours your selfish desires, unseen by the eyes. I look through you as my soul does the starry skies seeking

Here I stand, In my final moments On the brink of relapse, The very edge. There is no light On this dark path, No peace, No hope. They say do not go back to what hurt you It will make you weak But this world hurts everyday And I find myself in its midst. In solitude, I talk to the dark They echo silence. In despair I offer tears to the pillows But alas they do not thirst. I am burning out And fading all at once, And maybe I am crazy, but at least I had the courage To lose my

Hear my breath slowly still As I utter these words “IM FINE” Do you notice it? The difference in my voice The depths it reaches The conceited lie Hidden in those words It’s never “tell me what’s really on your mind” It’s never “tell me the truth” It’s always “are you okay?” Or “are you fine” I’m not okay I’m not stable At least not enough To grasp this discerning hold of my life I lie cuz you’re not looking for my real truth You ask as a formality Not that you care But you’d

It ends now. The lies, the trauma, The despicable two faced truths, The hurt. I’m so torn; My heart is so bitter I’m dismayed, And my mind constricted. You’ve made the best of me, Unrecognizable; I don’t know who I am anymore, You’ve broken me. For so long I craved solace, I craved peace, I craved you. I gave my heart and my soul, I poured it all out for you, I’d have given myself up If you asked. Yet here I am; Nauseated at the thought of you, Sick to my stomach At the mere

Do you ever just wonder, Why the dark thoughts never seem to end? Why the light always seems to fade away? Why the suicidal cravings keep overshadowing your will to live, Why you can’t escape the prison of the dark Do you ever just sit there, Befuddled and astounded Lifeless as your breath slowly stills As your blood drives away from your heart, And the thoughts only get senile Do you ever try, To look for a glimmer of hope While you’re being devoured By eternity’s most unfri

Where were you, When I needed you most? When I stopped my time To listen to you? Where were you When I was being put through hell When my heart was being tortured When I cried my eyes out Where were you When I screamed your name When my soul was being dragged out of my body As they reshaped my emotions in your absence They were now done with me, They succeeded in breaking me down completely Every last shred of hope Was now lost For days, I couldn’t discern Reality against fic

I want to cry But there’s no tears I want to scream my lungs out But not a single sound lets loose I want to say how I feel But it’s not real I want to say “I LOVE YOU” But I can’t I want to know you’re okay But I don’t I want to say its real and true But it’s not I can’t feel I have no remorse I constantly defy reason Time and time again I break limits beyond my capabilities I have no expressions My plaintity knows no bounds My depression knows no limits I’m “Empty” I have

"This is the world on my shoulders"

It’s happening again The torment The agony The pain I feel it slowly creepin like the night sky I hear it whisper I watch it slip into the dark As it embraces a larger form I’m not up for this fight Not a third time I’ll lose this before it begins Like I lost the last two It’s hard, living with this “thing” It’s indescribable, It’s uncontrollable, But more so, I don’t know what it is This time, I have no will to fight, My heart aches with the darkest of echoes , It beats mo