You are with the earth, The night, and sky listening for vices, Chasing Everglades. If the morning comes And we still remain, Call the hallows chariots, Hellhounds, guardian deities. Refrain from being the prisoner, Absconding with moral decadence. Primordial being, Malevolence encased; cursed. Wait, wait, There’s still something in the air; Sinister, cold, Alluded to repeatedly. If there is paranoia, Then withhold this memory. Still, silent, profound, Do not deject into

Tear it down, and build it anew, With breath of bane, And zeal of dust, Gather! With bow, and flame, Avenge you must, Heap, and Scatter! With thine heart as pure, And hue as one, Aim true Else all is done. Should thy strike Be quick, And fate renewed, Attune, lest the mind plays trick For whence one came In shroud, and might, A holier war Fought far out of sight. In grief, and neglect, A parents failed past Buried in time Traveller, stuck at half mast. Dreaded tears, W

Learning to let go Has been difficult beyond recompense. Understanding this chaotic cycle, This karma. Over, and over again, I am reshaped By these actions, Ones perpetrated in my least decisive moments. The lies I hide behind Are merely a façade, A forced illusion adopted To keep the truth from coming to life. In my self conceited desires Lay both My fears, And weaknesses. Acknowledging them Has been no easy task. Thus, I find myself here once again In the midst of the tu

In those moments where every other thing seems to fade, you remind me of the things I want to forget. Yet, I embrace the poise of my indignant duality, succumbing to the numbness, and paranoia that casts a shadow on my weary existence. I find no solace in the midst of this madness, the same furnace that once consumed me I have now made my dwelling. Your conceited ego harbours your selfish desires, unseen by the eyes. I look through you as my soul does the starry skies seeking

I am afraid. Each time I close my eyes, The vast, endless space Never seems to end In my thoughts Lay confusion, and paranoia Far beneath the harsh exterior Buried in the past My blemishes, My battles, My wars, My truer self. They haunt me, The things I once loved; They torment me, The ones I sought to protect. In my waking moments I am numbed by pain, Shortness of breath, and The abysmal descent into the dark. I cannot wrap my head around it The harder I push The harder thes

Here I stand, In my final moments On the brink of relapse, The very edge. There is no light On this dark path, No peace, No hope. They say do not go back to what hurt you It will make you weak But this world hurts everyday And I find myself in its midst. In solitude, I talk to the dark They echo silence. In despair I offer tears to the pillows But alas they do not thirst. I am burning out And fading all at once, And maybe I am crazy, but at least I had the courage To lose my

It is one thing to inversely deny the truth, and Another to accept the relentless fates which await. You cannot run from what is to come; The futures past cannot be changed by the present. Moon and sun alike, Twilight be still as bright. Staring at my reflection Is like looking into an endless abyss. Falling deeper each day, I drift into a world of dreams Where I live till I am no more And my person becomes divine. You cannot tell But I linger between both worlds In a des

It is so easy to lose sight of What is right before our eyes, So easy to ignore it; Time speeds fast, slow, yet paced The pressure you feel Exerting every last ounce, Each breath, Every step of the way You start simple, calm, Slow steps, paced heartbeats With echos, resonating all over From the hair tips to your soles It overpowers you; Shivers down your spine Cold chills running down Leaving you breathless at a time You ponder and question The heartache, the nauseating Feel

There’s days when life just sticks it to you, Right from the moment You take your first breaths of the morning, Down to your eyes close at the end of the day. It’s complicated; Life I mean.. So many questions To be answered in so little time. What exactly are we doing? Why do we live? What is life? What is our purpose? We live each day In fear, Watching the sun set On our dreams, hopes, and aspirations. Why are we alive if we all die? Why are we subjected to this torture Of w

Hear my breath slowly still As I utter these words “IM FINE” Do you notice it? The difference in my voice The depths it reaches The conceited lie Hidden in those words It’s never “tell me what’s really on your mind” It’s never “tell me the truth” It’s always “are you okay?” Or “are you fine” I’m not okay I’m not stable At least not enough To grasp this discerning hold of my life I lie cuz you’re not looking for my real truth You ask as a formality Not that you care But you’d

For a moment there, I let it all go With my eyes closed, I Subdued my rage, my anger My despair, my depression Years and years of suppressing Thoughts, emotions, Feelings, conscience, Even some part of my soul It’s been so long since I felt something I’ve repressed it all And now, There’s nothing left It hurts, so bad, but it doesn’t I want it to end, but I don’t I want to fight, but all I can do Is let it consume me whole I thought I’d grown I thought I could win I really th

Hear these words, The very ones I utter. Desperate in my attempts To be saved I’ve been in the dark for so long; Where I sit in silence, Where my thoughts consume me, And nothing is left but this void Is there any one out there? Is there a single soul? Can someone hear me? I don’t want this anymore. I don’t know what day it is; Yet my hands bleed. I’ve been trying to claw my way out All to no avail. There is no light, As I sink deeper. My cries echo Till their resonance refle

Reflect; reflect Mind over matter Conscience over ego Still thought over pride Broken heart over love Flow like water Breath be still Ruse like fire Heart born ill You ponder on the truth The misery behind your existence, Unfathomable despair Yet preceded by discontent Stare at me Stare at this void The very one you made The one you despise Look me in my eyes And you will see Your darkest fears Don’t belong to me You can’t run You can’t hide My resolve, bright as the sun I n

Depression, crippling anxiety, pain, Sadness, anger, hurt, Tears, sorrow, mischief, Agony, heartbreak, denial I could pick one and describe how it feels every single step of the way. Waking up, feeling suffocated; can’t breathe, can’t move, can’t say a single word. Only thoughts cross my head in that single moment. I really don’t wanna be alive anymore. Why am I here? Who am I here for? What has being here changed? What am I doing here? I constantly face this each morning, ha