“BETWEEN TWO THORNS”

How dare you?

You question my loyalty,

You question my truth and emotions;

You question me.

After all the lies you’ve told,

The repetitive hidden truths,

The secrets you hid,

The empty words you spoke.

You looked me dead in the eyes,

And you lied to me.

You lied to my heart,

You lied to my soul.

When you uttered those words,

I’d throw myself in your arms embrace,

I’d feel my heart pace faster and faster

With each breath;

My lips ever craving yours

As my hands lingered,

My eyes still fixed upon you,

And body next to yours.

Yet I hear those very same words

From your mouth,

And this time

I regress.

This time my body feels numb,

As my eyes lose their light.

My hands remain closed,

As my lips barely utter a single word

How dare you

Use me for your

Conceited, twisted, unfathomable

Hearts desires!

Still, after all that

It was never enough for you,

You wanted more, you craved more

You needed more.

You dare ask for mercy?

You dare ask for forgiveness?

A joke in itself!

A lie yet again.

I see through you.

Your words hide their intentions

As you hide

Behind your words.

Empty and vague

They are,

Blemishes in the sand

Deceitful yet unachieved.

This is your pitiful excuse

At justifying your actions?

This is your right?

This is your truth?

No words could contain

The disappointment in my heart,

No actions could portray

The vast wasteland that is my soul.

You think you’ve won?

You think you’ve broken me?

You think you’ve taken all I had

You think I’m yours?

I beseech you to know your place.

I have nothing to give,

Nothing to break,

Nothing to lose.

You on the other hand

Will learn guilt,

Anger, hate

Pain.

These I do not wish upon you

But these you’ve brought

Upon yourself,

And these you must face.

To this life I will always be a stranger,

A mere passer by;

And there is no greater comfort

Than knowing myself to be what I am.

I can’t take back my time, but

I can erase my memories of you,

I can erase the moments we had,

I can erase us.

Without a word,

Or thought, and to me,

I can accept that

You no longer exist in this life.