"BLACK SOUL"

I trusted you My significant other To protect this feeble heart of mine With the bond so divine

I thought of you As I drowned in my own pain In hopes you’ll come to the rescue But I provided my own refuge

I cowered in silence At the mention of your name I dissolved with disgrace Each time I saw your face

I was alone With No where to go I was labelled “Alma Negra” *scoffs* a befitting answer

I am empty Wondering through wastelands In hopes of bumping into you Reliving painful moments on this cruise

I slept for days Hungry and bitter Dreaming of your soul And your soul alone

I sought a reason, A reason for your betrayal A reason to hate you A reason to resist your existence

Alas, I found my heart desire “Love” It’s the epitome of true cruelty It’s the beginning of pure evil

Oh I remember! The first time you said it “I Love you” Gave me goosebumps for hours

But you sure fooled me You got me good. Love! Love is evil and unkind

Love is hateful and uncertain Love is blind and harsh Love is cruel and demonic Love! It’s what hell calls out to it’s prisoners

You probably don’t know this But I’m suicidal now more than ever I can’t sleep without thinking of it Taking my life I mean

I’m scared the demons will take me As I lay myself to bed As I search for the holy grail As I waited for you

This heart was once feeble ‘Tis now a heart of stone Tis a heart without a home Tis a time bomb waiting to blow

Don’t you dare say you’re sorry Don’t you fucking dare I wish you felt my pain I wish you were hurt like I was

I wish you were never born I wish, I wish I wish I didn’t have to bleed when I thought about you I wish I didn’t turn cold when I heard your name

I wish I didn’t I wish I didn’t I can’t help it now It’s all just flooding out

The pain The agony The severity of my heart rupturing Through my ribs

I wish you hell And agonizing pain I wish the devil himself was your suitor And you never had a life to begin with

I wish you the worst of both worlds Dead and alive I hope they rip you inside out Limb from limb

Till your blood and bone Resemble the dust I trusted you And you left me

It’s fine now I’m not here much longer I’m only a passenger in this life Hoping for a better one

If you got this, Im very much dead now The suicidal thoughts won I was never strong enough without you

I hope you heard my screams at night I hope my blood filled your lungs I ceased to exist the moment you left As of now, I am but; “Alma Negra”

M.G.T