“BROKEN”

It ends now.

The lies, the trauma,

The despicable two faced truths,

The hurt.

I’m so torn;

My heart is so bitter

I’m dismayed,

And my mind constricted.

You’ve made the best of me,

Unrecognizable;

I don’t know who I am anymore,

You’ve broken me.

For so long

I craved solace,

I craved peace,

I craved you.

I gave my heart and my soul,

I poured it all out for you,

I’d have given myself up

If you asked.

Yet here I am;

Nauseated at the thought of you,

Sick to my stomach

At the mere mention of your name

Why am I never enough?

Why is my heart the only one that falls;

What is wrong with me?

Time and time again,

My trust, my hopes;

Are ripped from my bosom,

And I’m left picking up my pieces

I’m left picking up bits of my consciousness,

I’m left in hurt,

I’m left in pain.

The tears won’t subside,

The pain won’t go away,

The heart aches never cure,

And my mind now wonders astray.

I want back what I’ve given,

For I can give no more;

I want back that which was pried from me,

For I have no more to let go of;

I’d give anything to be happy again,

But I have nothing left.

I want to be saved from my torment and despair;

But I’m broken beyond repair.