MEMOIRE

It has been months on end;

Time has paced so fast, and

So much has happened

Since then and now

No days have passed 

Without thoughts of you

Parading the empty halls

Of my mind

I am falling to pieces all over again 

I can not find myself 

Or what little happiness

I thought I had left

I thought I had let go....

Let go of us,

The thoughts of you

Your precious face

Smiling upon me

As you held mine in awe,

Kissing me so tenderly

Your arms encompassing reach 

Gave me warmth in your bosom

As your heartbeat 

Synced with mine

I hoped to forget after all this time

But seeing you

On that lonely road made

The memories flood right back

The tears,

Laughs we shared, 

Dates, nights spent huddled, and

The times spent in arms embrace 

I am overwhelmed to my core,

Trying so desperately to suppress 

It all but I cannot

I am losing myself

Steeped in time and thought,

You have always been in my heart

I was so stupid

And I let you go

I can never take that back

And it will forever be my biggest mistake 

It feels suffocating, 

Burning and eating me up within

Knowing you are happy without me

Knowing I don’t wake up next to you

With that angelic glow on your face,

Adorning your most blessed grace 

You have forgotten me 

But you are still all I need 

All I want, and

I am still so madly in love with you

I am so broken

But with you I knew peace 

I am so lost

But you found me

I wish I could take it all back

I would never let go

Holding you so tight

We would share a heartbeat

I would love you like Eros

And you would be my Aphrodite

I would bend the heavens to your will, and

Align the constellations to your heart's' desires

I am sorry I was not enough

So flawed, and careless,

Unappreciative of you,

Bitter and afraid

It will never be the same 

Without your muse,

Your fire, your love,

The best of us

I was doing okay

Till I saw you, how

Happy you were without me,

And it broke me.