“NEVER AGAIN”

You’ve done your worst

You’ve thrown everything at me

You’ve hit me while I was down

You’ve let me go

I thought about hurting you like you hurt me

About vengeance

About hate so malicious

So vile yet destructive

But then I realize

You don’t deserve that

You don’t deserve my hate

You don’t deserve that hold over me

I’d have given the world to see your smile

I’d have given my heart up again

Just to feel your touch

To feel you

I would’ve quelled

The most atrocious lies

If it meant

I could see you one last time

Yet here I am once more

Sick to my stomach

At the whisper of your name

At the sight of you

We constantly let our deeds

Blind us

We put ourselves asunder

For others

Yet they disregard us

“Tools” we are to them

“For their amusement”

They say

You took everything

I had

Even when I had nothing to give

Even when I had nothing left for myself

Here I stand

Staring your senile self

In the mirror

Demanding answers

And there you stand

Conceited in your own world

Displeased by the same aura

You let descend on me

You ask for forgiveness

You say you’re sorry

You wish to relieve the guilt

That same sickness deep down

It will never go away

Not so long as I draw life

From this earth

From this world

I’d hoped to save you

I wanted so bad

To save you

So you could save me

But what you gave me

Made my heart sink

To depths

Even I never discovered

Is this all there is to life?

Torment, pain, agony

Hurt, lies, insanity

Death

Is this really all there is?

What is this cycle

That doesn’t seem to end?

This dark mural

That grows dim each passing day

You’ve taken the best I had

And made it the worst

Twisted it till it was unrecognizable

Till I was unrecognizable

I’ve come to terms with it

And I sure hope you have too

I wish you everything your heart desires

And so much more

Never again

Will my mind be deceived

Never again

Will my heart feel “truth”

Never again

Will my body crave another

And Never again

Will my soul fall out of place.