“WHERE WERE YOU”

Where were you,

When I needed you most?

When I stopped my time

To listen to you?

Where were you

When I was being put through hell

When my heart was being tortured

When I cried my eyes out

Where were you

When I screamed your name

When my soul was being dragged out of my body

As they reshaped my emotions in your absence

They were now done with me,

They succeeded in breaking me down completely

Every last shred of hope

Was now lost

For days, I couldn’t discern

Reality against fiction

What I feel vs what I was programmed to feel

What remorse was, what it meant

I can’t feel anything

I fucking can’t tell what makes sense no more

I can’t see beyond this cloud shrouding my sight

I can’t think any more

I hate you

I hate your guts

I hate your existence

I hate that we were ever friends

I despise you

My hatred burns brighter

Each time your name is mentioned

And I see your face

I wish you were dead!

No no,

Death would be too good for you

You deserve hell

I wish I could reach down your throat

And rip your heart out through your lungs

And watch you gasp for air

As you draw final breath

I was in pain

But you never cared

You never came to look for me

You never came to my aid

I cried so hard

No sound came out

I slept bare chested thinking it’ll be over soon

I thought I meant something to you

No! Now I see it

They only did me a favour

They opened my eyes

To the illusion of the world

They’ve shown me the truth

They’ve unleashed my pure hate

Mystery shrouds my wavy existence

And grief fills my heart

You left me to die

And you ran off to save yourself

I bled for hours, crawling on the spike grounds

Where I was whipped into submission

I begged for days and licked their boots

Thinking it’ll make them stop

But it only got worse, they truly wanted to break me

And i gave in. They broke my will to live

Keep running,

Never look back

Make sure you don’t stop

Even for a drink of water

Cuz I will chase you to the ends of the earth

Till I find you

I will repay you a thousand fold

For what you put me through

I will show you “Hell”

Like I’m lucifers conscience

I will make you numb

Till your eyes scrape the surface of your skull

I loved you,

But I guess that was just a lie;

Where were you when I needed you the most?

Where were you?

M.G.T