“PRISONER IN THE DARK”

Here we are again

Reliving painful moments

Picking up what’s left

The remaining pieces of me

I see now that I can’t run

I can’t escape whatever this is

This sickness deep down

This darkness that haunts me

I’m so tired of fighting

Words can’t describe

The torture

I’ve put my heart through

The tears don’t fall anymore

Just as the pain is desired

My heart no longer feels genuinely

Just as my soul doesn’t know it’s place

In a different life

To be happy would be attainable

I’m a different life

I would fight to be free

But in this life

I’ll always be a prisoner

A mere reflection

A façade

I want to heal

I want to let go

I want to feel

I want to love

But to these I do not belong

I’m designed to take it all

The despair, the agony, the sorrow

The hate, the rage, the pain

The heartbeats I hear

Are no longer mine

They reflect my souls distress

They reflect my death

I ask not that you remember me

I ask not that you sorrow for my passing

I ask not that you say my name

And bury me in the dust as I came

I’m consumed by grief

Eaten up by guilt

Devoured by despair

And deformed by pain

I’m sorry I’m not enough

I didn’t know my mind

Could make me feel so worthless

I didn’t know I’d be a prisoner here

In my own soul

I wish not to be free

Not from this quest on which I embark

Lord save me

As I embrace the prisoner in the dark