“SOUL’S ESCAPE”

For a moment there, I let it all go

With my eyes closed,

I Subdued my rage, my anger

My despair, my depression

Years and years of suppressing

Thoughts, emotions,

Feelings, conscience,

Even some part of my soul

It’s been so long since I felt something

I’ve repressed it all

And now,

There’s nothing left

It hurts, so bad, but it doesn’t

I want it to end, but I don’t

I want to fight, but all I can do

Is let it consume me whole

I thought I’d grown

I thought I could win

I really thought;

I really thought I could do it

The sleepless nights never end

Staring into the abyss

Looking for something to hold onto

Something, someone to pull me out of this

In the end all I have is myself

No one can hear me

No one understands

There’s no one to cry out to for help

The cold chills

As I sink deeper and deeper

Into my subconscious

An endless void

Pitch black as I descend,

Vast as space,

Endless as time,

Filled with nothingness

Facing my reflection

In this alternate reality,

Casts a shadow

On my existence

I want to ask for help

But something holds me back

This loop I’m in,

This hold I can’t shake

It’s nauseating, it’s suffocating

I can’t breathe

It feels like I’m drowning

In an endless pool of despair

I regress,

Watch the light slowly fade away

As I’m consumed

By the very elements I despise

I want it to end

I want it all to end

The last bit of my soul

Is being chipped away, stolen from me

All I can do is watch as it happens

Watch as I’m devoured

By eternity’s most unfriendly truth,

By this void

This is who I was

And it’s not who I want to be

This is not who I wish to become

But it’s everything I am.